2009年10月26日星期一

強硬的蛻變中

這些天不知怎麼了,所有的人事物在我不知道的情況之下,
說變就變。

始終沒有變的只有我,
原地踏步。
看起來只是不知所措的可憐蟲。

我真的太久沒有增值了。
不斷的埋怨,埋怨,再埋怨。

身邊的食物似乎就是這樣,
無聲無息的在改變。

我,真的不知道自己發生甚麼事,
似乎已經沒有鬥志了。
似乎自己已經變得不知道發生甚麼事了。
難道我已經逃離了?
已經到達烏托邦了?
已經與世隔絕了?

看來我真的不應該埋怨甚麼了。
應該站起來,為自己的未來打拼了。
其實甚麼未來都沒想過,甚麼夢想也沒有的軀殼會想甚麼未來呢?
只好繼續的混日子。
繼續的幫完成功課當作自己的夢想。
只好繼續的發白日夢。

自己已經不知道自己要甚麼了,
人總是這樣。
我已經不乞求了,卻還在期望甚麼。

已經是這樣了。
已經不想在陰暗下去了。
是時候要弄些快樂的事情,紀錄快樂食物了!!

2009年10月14日星期三

說說部落格

終於換了個地址,目的是為了不讓任何人輕易的連接自己的秘密。
blog,對很多人來說是個賺錢的工具,也可以是成名的天地。
對我,這個秘密的收藏所,我不願公開,
因為是我的秘密。

以前覺得可以在這裡為所欲為,
後來發現,
原來這種想法是錯的。

這裡是人們窺看的橋梁,
探索着秘密的橋梁。
人的好奇心是無止境的,
當他發現了可以窺看秘密的地方之後,
他就會無時無刻的光臨這個秘密天地,
希望一探對方的秘密,
以後作為交換的武器。
人,賤人,都是凡人。
所以人,永遠都是以卑賤的舉動,換取高貴的榮耀。

人們就是喜歡到他人的部落格窺探,所以自己也造一個部落格做交換。
相互的窺探,相互的隄防。
部落格,
部落也,
用心的經營,
他可以是最強大的部落,
發放攻擊性的謠言,這樣就可以輕而易舉的攻陷任何城堡。
觀眾是你的士兵,連接是你的武器。
隨意的,就可以輕輕鬆鬆的將一個人格,黑白顛倒。
白的變成黑,黑的變成白。
說得天花亂墜,就可以將自己的地位提高到一個不可理喻的地步。
每個人將之稱為神。

部落格。
小的,可以是一個小小收藏所。
輕輕的放下一些自己的秘密。
穩穩當當的,收起自己的回憶。
緩緩的道出自己的心情。
部落格。
怎麼經營,怎麼管理,
都會變成人們窺探的理由,
也可稱為攻擊他人的橋梁。

部落格,部落格...
我的部落格是為甚麼而開的呢?
由你決定。

2009年10月4日星期日

breaking

give me a break, please.
I'm also a human been.
give me some space.
I know you really care, but can you just let me go?

we  done, we end.
just give you, give me some space.
if you want the gift back, I send it back.
just now I really don't want talk to you.
because I really don't know who you are.
we end,  we done.

you have your own world,
the world without me.
neater I.

now,
what you want to say?
just leave me message, and I will figure it out, what happen with us.
at this moment, I have so many problem that you can figure out,
so just let me be what I wanna be.
we can talk later, but not now, k?
just leave a command or what, then I will reply it as soon as I can.

ha~, I need a break.

2009年10月2日星期五

Past, present and future

You've said that, I'm deserve someone else better then you,
you've said that, we not belong together is because we were not loving each other...
but one thing you've forgot, not we not belong together, is you not belongs to me...
when I'm trying to be with you, you push me out.
This is the first time I'm trying to using English to write a blog.
YEAH~!

Know what?
the one who regret is you!
you regret that you told me you like me,
but didn't tell me that,
you just like me as a friend.
you keep telling me, do not talk about this topic anymore.
now who talk about this first?
ya,
I have write something in Facebook,
but I have almost forget any about this after all.
but you, you keep thinking that I'm care,
care about all you're saying,
care about all about us?
hm....
well, now I really care...

remember?
you call me all the times.
you.
yes, you.

when I told you I'm not love in you,
you said, never mind.
but you keep acting you love me.

you know what?
the present you've send to me,
I feel so suck, and stupid.
the last present I mean.
yes.
suck and stupid.

you send me two notebook and a teddy bear,
with also a paper pack?
what you want me to do?
pack it myself?
or maybe you just send me a pack witch already packing?
will that better then this??
well, yes.
I'm angry about this.
what am I?
a teenager who among 15~16?
I'm already adult!!

yes, you've reject me.
yes... can say so....
but what?
who never been rejected with anyone?
I'm not angry about you,
but just the present you have sent me last time.
man, be a man.
talk about it as normal as before.
that is not that hard.
talk about it later?
when will you do for later?
until when?
until you and I be granpa and grandmom?

Boy, be a man.
just like a man.
you can find a partner when you still saying you like me so much.
you can do such a things as the same time you like me?
if you really like me.
you say you care your girlfriends will care,
then what about me?
did I will care among that time?
of course I care,
using heart in a same time... huh?
good.

ya, you're right.
we are not belong together.
I'm belong to better person, but not you.
you will not belong to me.
we are different.

Go, boy.
Go.
Go find you distends.
Run, boy.
Run.
Run like a real man.
We are just a short view, for each life.